KANGJIE

Friday, July 3, 2009

wish .

okay back to blog. and look at the time! i should be sleeping already. but lesson starts at 11am later and i had a shiok 2hours nap just now. when my mum came in the room i still thought why on earth does she wake me up so early (she woke up at 6am everyday). that was when i realised i fell asleep. lol.

okay this week isnt so bad. completed the booked that i borrowed from seany way way back. hmmm. i teared. the part when enzo is dying. i stopped tearing and i finished the rest of the book. i finished reading at 3.49am. put away the book. then i started tearing again. i dont know why. it just happened. maybe i surpressed my emotions for too long already? maybe i have always showed people the stronger side of me? i dont know. and this continue around a couple more times.

anyway. me, dr teo is here to share something. i can really conclude that emotions are totally linked to health. the other day when i was feeling damn unhappy, my fever returned and a little headache. then today when i was in school wasnt really happy with someone, as usual, i had a terrible headache. sigh. therefore, this is proven, by Dr. Teo Kangjie. lol.

hmmm. due to some incidents, i think i really fail as a friend. i always tried to be the best i could. and i thought its the best i could be already. but somehow, it is not that case. i dont know how to explain. but ya, even though friends shared stuffs among each other, there are still some stuffs you rather not said. or maybe you would only share with certain closer friends.

its hard for me to cheer up. and even though i might feel unhappy i would still try to cheer people up when they are feeling down. sometimes i just dont hold the power like some other people do, one snap of the fingers and you turned out okay. when im unhappy, i tried not to affect others' mood. i tried not to make things worse. but somehow im always the one being affected. thats how unfair life is huh?

dennison popped me one random question just now.
"How do you even define friends?"

it really got me pondering who really are my friends.

is it you?

2:29 AM