Hope it changes
Hope my life changes
Gets alright somehow
Oh I’m waiting for tomorrow
I hope it changes
Cant you stay the same
Been out of luck for so long
And I don’t get much so theres nothing much to lose

泳儿：失去的 恋爱难以勉强
林峰： 开一句声
合： 听着情歌总可满足一秒遐想
林峰： 日后留恋你的声线
泳儿：恐怕未放下明日更 不堪设想
林峰： 而我不堪设想
合： 一千句 亲爱的
恐怕时间到了无缘又遇上
林峰： 我亦无办法得到见谅
泳儿：忘掉我声音以后别惆怅
林峰： 沉默一刻我在惆怅
合： 始终无法合唱

怎麽了你累了 说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了 爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不等了 说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了 放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢

okieeeeeee.
its been a week since i last blog,
and i know no one cares.
hahahaha.

anyway its been quite a hectic week.
first of all,
let me talk about my individual assignments.
Business Franchise and SME.
need to thank my classmates.
Dennison, Sean Yuen and Tricia.
they actually sort of guide me how complete.
i totally sucked at individual assignments.
so yup,
thank you guys if you happen to come across this blog!

thursday (20th)

went airport to celebrate rachelGOH's and weixiong's birthday.
plus sending bingchao and weiwen off to perth (ENVY LIKE MAD)
celebration was quite fun.
photos taking.
then was bid goodbye to the NP guys.


birthday girl!


birthday boy!


thats how good looking my friends are.
and its a wonder how i can so different from them! hahah.


trying to act hollywood star! (:


me with birthday KIDS.


with weixiong.


with rachelGOH.


group 1!


alot of our teachers said that me and xiongwei(red shirt) look alike.
was puzzled for a few years.
but this pic somehow makes me think that.
we actually looks alike from some angle!
hahaha.

friday (21st)

school as normal.
went for a haircut with xiongwei during the evening time.
we spend 1 and a half hour at the aunty house.
dinner at xiongwei house.
and left around 12plus.
was talking to him.
its been a looooooooooong time since we had a chat.
yup.

saturday (22nd)

went to work in the morning.
then went phuture at night.
it was my first clubbing night okie!
hahaha.
people who went are,
me rachel eileen yuentuck lileen derrick weisiong rayson zaixing gabriel ivan leon.
quite alot of people i bu shou.
but had fun drinking with yuentuck!

drinks that i drank that night.
2 flaming larmboghini.
1 bourbon coke (rock glass).
alot alot of screwdriver.
alot alot of bourbon coke (jug).
alot alot of lime vodka.
alot alot of dont know what is that called.

so despite all these.
im still standing still.
rachel was GG-ed.
eileen was rather CMI.

so me and yuentuck decided to send them home.
send rachel home first.
then eileen.
in the end when it reach yuentuck house.
it was 38bucks!
dammit. hahaha.

clubbing really wasnt for me.
i love to drink.
but not at this type of environment.
anet pub was okie.
kind of like it.
but not phuture.
hahaha.
so i wont be going back there anytime soon.
oh.
that night i spend more than 100bucks!
BOMB!

sunday (23rd)

decided to skip work that day.
was really really tired.
plus my head was like 10times heavier than before.
rest at home until night time.
went out at night and was back only in the morning.

monday (24th)

sleep for only 1hour then mum woke me up.
went to have breakfast at serangoon north with aunt bigsis and mum.
then was airport to fetch my big aunt!
its been long since i last seen her!
and andi as well.

mum drove me to school.
reached there 45mins earlier.
slacked aloneeeeeee.
then night time was dinner with the whole family except dad.
me, my two sis, mum, my two aunts, uncle grandma, andi and darrell.
ate quite alot.
and i love salad prawns!
hohohohohohohhohohohohoho.

was out after i reach home.
but returned 1hour later.

tuesday (25th)

normal school days.
except that i skip the first lesson.
was darn tired.
reached only at 11.
got back the individual report.
got 11/15 thanks to my classmates! (:

lunch with zhuowei dennison and justin/justine.
he drives a benz!
cooool shit.
had teppanyaki.
nice nice nice~
though me and dennison was like tasting everything,
and concluded that whatever we order,
the taste will be the same.
cause they use the same sauce for EVERYTHING.
oh and dennison treat us drinks.
how nice. (:

then was lecture with karshing.
after that was loitering at tampines with juls and suet.
victor DROVE us there!
darn cool.
dinner was chicken rice.

then was bugis to look for rachel and pass her her camera.
she MUST be grateful to me okie!
was shopping alone for awhile.
bought 2tees for 49.90 at edc.
woooooooo.
cheap cheap.
and i think my sister is going to pay for it!
RIGHT?!

then was airport to see yanying off.
she was shocked i was there.
hohohoho.
shey and evangeline was also there.
first time i see evangeline.
she's hyper and friendly. (:

took a bus back with her after that.
talked non stop.
doesnt look like its the first time we met each other! (:

today (26th)

skip school!
was darn tired.
i know its a bloody excuse, so what?!

brunch with mum.
then to kovan.
then to bugis to shop alone again.
bought 2shorts and 1tee.
i seriously hope i will wear the shorts.
cause its not something i will wear actually.
hahaha.

then back to kovan.
then homed.

patrick came to my house.
showing my what he bought for his prom.
when he was out,
the first thing pop into my mind wasssssssssssss,
ya he know whats that.
but its still okie i think.
lets just hope some people of some occupation is not wearing the same colour as him. (:

had dinner at 9 when he left.
and here i am blogging!

school tomorrow at 9 and ends at 6.
tomorrow there's chalet.
friday there's no school.
and there's no work this weekend.
i felt damn relax.
oh and maybe going sentosa.
not confirm yet!

okie thats all.
its a long long long post!
ciao guys!

kangjie .
196th episode.


P.S I LOVE YOU

Because I told you, you would live to regret it
Now I don't wanna make you feel bad
But when it comes to me just forget it
I'll be the best you never had
You put me through so many emotions
Now baby it's your turn for that
Cause in your empty heart I have left a mark
The best you never had

You know i'm hoping you sing along
I know it's not your favorite song
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
You know that some of us spin again
When you do, you need a friend
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
And i hate the thought of finally being erased
Baby that's the best of me

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry

didnt blog for a few days.
didnt know what to blog.
things happened.
but i dont know what am i suppose to blog.

anyway,
the past few days,
my days are involved with alcohol.
there's only one day when i didnt consume any.
and seriously,
till now i still got no idea what to blog.
so i guess i shall talk about yesterday bah.

yesterday.
after work went down to clarke quay to meet patrick.
he suggest that we meet his friend and go to her dad's pub.
so i agreed.

while waiting for his friend.
eileen came around to meet us.
then came patrick's friend.

her name is annette (i dont know whether i got the spelling right or not),
she's very friendly,
comfortable to mix around with,
and a funny person.
oh ya,
she's also a caring person.

then cab down to her dad's pub.
first time!
abit suaku i know.

so when i first got in,
it was kind of noisy.
but got used to it quite fast.
and in the end,
i kind of like the environment.

annette's brother is very nice too.
he suggest to offer us Gin Tonic since no one knows what to order.
and he consistently come around and ask us whether we are fine or whether the drinks are alright anot. (:
Gin Tonic is nice.
i dont know why.
but when i taste it at cosmo,
its not that nice.
this Gin Tonic is nice.
alcohol content is somehow low also.

then was Tequila Pop.
first time popping it.
was fun.
hahaha.
so the 4 of us begin to play finger guessing game.
eileen drink the less i think.
she only had Gin Tonic and Tequila Pop,
and she proceed to Orange Juice and Coke.

annette got Gin Tonic, Tequila Pop, and one Bourbon Coke.
patrick got Gin Tonic, Tequila Pop, and two Bourbon Coke.
and i got Gin Tonic, Tequila Pop, and three Bourbon Coke.

i wanted to drink more.
was stopped by eileen.
and im wide awake.
dammit.

so annette and patrick was somehow drunk.
eileen definitely not.
neither am i.

send annette home first.
then eileen.
then patrick came to my house.

i did something damn foolish.
rash.
and idiotic.

shall not talk about it here.
so basically thats what happen yesterday.

its considered as both my best and worst day ever.
so i shall named it the 'haha' day.
i have TWO pathetic photo.
but i dont have the cable to transfer them.
so next time then.
found the cable!


this is eileen chin.


this is patrick yap.

we took a few photos.
and i dont know why he only keep this.
and great.
he doesnt even open his eyes.
LOL.

I cant live
If living is without you
I cant live
I cant give anymore
I cant live
If living is without you
I cant give
I cant give anymore

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

there's only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
there's only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

okie.
timecheck : 1:58am
i know its not SUPER late.
but its late.
dont have to go school later on.
was cancelled!

mahjong today with grace zhuowei and new friend, renjian.
lost my freaking money to zhuowei lei.
thats super bad for me i tell you.
when he started playing,
i was like the KING of mahjong.
hahahaha.
minus the fact that victor was the KING of the KING.
but now zhuowei love is like so pro lah.
cheat my money.
but anyway.
had fun playing with them! (:

went to suet's blog just now.
view her achieve and thats why im here blogging my thoughts before its gone!
her blog said so much about how much she misses and love 1B11.
how she's afraid that after changing class,
we will just be "hi-bye" friends.
but fret not, this isnt happening any time sooner! (:

TP's PEEPS

benjaminleemingyan!
though you are often irritating with your loud voice, its still nice to know you as my first friend in temasek(not counting jiasheng). though we dont talked nowadays, you are still remembered by me! HOHOHO!

ganjiasheng!
known the presence of this guy for like yearsssssss. didnt talked to him at northvista. turned out we are in the same class at temasek. loves showing off his beautiful biceps. but all in all, he's a nice chap, though he got his own group of friends, he still find chance to meet up once in a while! tolerate alot of our nonsense and keep on suan-ing him. its nice to know this tall, dark, charming guy! (:

julinahuanghuixian!
my dancing partner for "walk to the left and walk to the right" dance! thought her name was juliAna at first. a total big sister look lah. but when she open her mouth, VULGARITIES came out a few times in a sentence! hahaha. nice person to talk to. VERY interested to know stuffs and dont mind lending her precious ears! hahaha. see you soon! (:

luasuetjing!
thought her christian name was suet at first! irritating when she keep saying "you know i can also speak good chinese lei" hahaha. never fail to be bullied by me! she's the one who clinged so hard to 1B11! she's the one trying to pull everyone back together to have lunch or chill-lax session. she's my ex-NPY by the way. its fun knowing her actually. she's always so willing to listen to what i got to say! lecture soon! (:

ngyiyong!
was bothered by her "keep staring at me" situation at the first day of orientation. in the end, she turned out to be my primary school mate. her sis and my sis was like besties back in the 90's. enjoyed the disgusted look on her face when she sees something she's doesnt like or bother her. was very real in some sense. very nice to talk with. her high pitched tone voice never fail to amaze me! hello mahjong kaki! (:

ngzhuowei!
to say the truth, i dont like him in the first place. was complaining about him to everyone! HAHA! but its okie now! he's my new love! hoho. like suet says, his one-sentence-10-words-9-vulgarities are cool in some ways. never fails to entertain me when im bored at night. never fails to keep asking questions about my msn nicks and personal nicks! for him, friends are EVERYWHERE! hello love! (:

tankarshing!
gosh, this girl im talking over her got the lamest jokes in the whole wide world! she's also my best audience when it comes to the point that my jokes are also lame. she's good at hiding stuffs because of her hiding her relationship for 1yearplus! TSK! though she always zhen dui me from time to time, i know you still love me karshing! (:

victorchew!
big big guy who played in the big big field out there. a rugby player. heard that he's actually a national player right now! so proud that i've got a friend who is a national player! as i mention, he's the KING of the KING for mahjong! a very nice and friendly guy i must say! oh! and he's the only one who smoke in the group! dont injured yourself so often! (:

there are still some 1b11 peeps like, cleochoo, the rich taitai who got a super nice boyfriend, venga, the motor and car guy, roland and jieni, deeraj, simon and many many more! (:


the 850 peeps!


yiyong and me!


cleo, zhuowei, yiyong, belindaho, victor, benlee, venga


juls, karshing, suet, belindaho, iza, jiasheng, me!

CLIQUE!

chengkimwee!
get to know this guy only when im in sec 3. didnt really have much chance to talk to him then. gradually when we know each other more, he's such a fun guy to be with. he's funny, he's loud. a big fan of chelsea! its really great to know this guy! though there's a few hiccups here and there, he took it well. hope he's really happy now! stay strong kimwee! (:

chengyanying!
known her since sec 1. was in my npcc group! didnt know much about her then. same class when we got to sec 3. know a little bit more. then its sec 4. this is the time when we know each other better! she's in MJC. and though she often MIA-ed when there are projects or examinations, she apologise just for that! haha. she always feel so bad having to trouble us always, like the song above, that's what friends are for! (:

howeiwen!
known him since sec 1. was in the same class for 4years straight. a very very shy boy when we first met. and one thing that he didnt change is that, he still love sleeping, ALOT! haha. a manchested united fan. big fan. was a PRO at maths. and im dead serious about that maths part! haha. he's having his a levels right now, so best wishes and good luck for all your papers! see you soon! (:

howeixiong!
weiwen's biological brother! wasnt really close to him at first. and i had no idea how we were! LOL! been working with him for the past around 1 year 2? first was toastbox and now was timberland. a good person to work with. didnt have to worry that there's no one to talk to when you are bored! cause he's always there! was really funny when he asked redundant question. its funny when we know he didnt ask that on purpose to make us laugh! haha. timberland! (:

khoobingchao!
a really really really fun guy to hang out with. like weiwen, i've known him since sec1. its around 5 years going 6 this year. never regret knowing him for one second. one of my mahjong kaki in the past. was a cadet inspector for NPCC! super cool! its actually quite funny how we actually know each other. still remember he accused me of scolding him for passing the paper to hard! it was meant to be a joke bingchao! haha. remember how we used to go to school almost everyday when you still live at hougang. remember how we used to argue/quarrel for the tiniest thing in the world. but its just good news we didnt fight, AT ALL! (:

limleongcheng!
known him when i was in sec 2! was the clown of the class! he's full of jokes, regardless real funny ones or just pretty lames one. haha. MOST of his jokes back in NVSS days started with XIAOMING as the character in his jokes! still in the same campus with him! a basketball lover! a tpsu lover! and yup. he's also an art lover! P*********Y lover right leongcheng? in the middle of the night! hohoho. (:

linfangke!
he's best known as kemund lin! a duo with leongcheng back in the class. same class as him for 3 straight years! and im laughing at his jokes and crazy stunts for 3 straight years! he's someone who dont care about his image back in NVSS. he do stuffs as if there's no one watching. the ugliest stunts you can ever see! OH! used to be a maple lover! and now is jas lover! hahaha. hi kemund! im done! (:

neoxiongwei!
3 years of classmates! 6 years of friendship and still counting! a serious guy who take work seriously! a caring guy who does volunteering work whenever he has the time! he's in rocmoc. participated on behalf for singapore in competition before! a good runner! a good swimmer! a good rice-eater! hahaha. he's really very considerate when it comes to his friends. is having his a levels right now also. best wishes and all the best to you too buddy! (:

rachelgohruohan!
a petite girl who is currently undergoing Rescue GG project and is a touch rugby player who just recovered from an injury! a crazy little girl i would describe her. she mix and mingle with almost everyone in the world. its so bad that you had to book an appointment before asking her out, im a little extreme of course! but a fun girl to hang out with! especially having the same interest as me! TWILIGHT! (:


weixiong's birthday celebration '07


me and xiongwei!


me, weiwen, bingchao, leongcheng.


my birthday celebration '07

me and bingchao!

me, bingchao, yanying!


bingchao, me, kimwee, rachelGOH!

eileenchinyuling!
she's my owner! dont ask me why. just look at my nick! hahaha. a troubled little lady. who thinks alot that stress out her tiny brain! 6 years of friendship with 1 or 2 years that need to be cancelled out! haha. she knows why. was happy to know her as my friend. though would be happier if something else happened! hahaha. dont think too much little girl! (:

firdaus!
my ex-colleague at Cosmopolitan! when i got in he's a bartender! when he got out, i was the bartender! hahaha. a fun guy to hang out with. never fail to entertain me while working. laughing with other colleagues! he got the ability to brighten someone's day with a long meaningful message! (:

janicewee!
okie. to say the fact. i dont really know her! but she's the special one because she's easy to talk to! in the same campus and we regard each other as brother! so if i've got problems and i need people to talk to! i wont hesitate to approach her! please be careful janice, you know i've got damn lot of problems waiting to pour on you! (:

kennethgohdawei!
the biological brother of rachelgoh. know him since he was 12! and now he's 16. how time flies without us knowing! a great runner but SMALL in size! and im serious about the SMALL part! a very innocent and funny guy! was popular among girls because of his cute face and beautiful features! finishing his o levels pretty soon. hope he can really do well! (:

khoolileen!
sec 1 classmates! she's dark. very dark! or maybe tanned! she got 4 dogs! meaning there's something common in us. we didnt talked for like 1 year and suddenly we talked to each other like we were some super close friends who sees each other everyday during her chalet! a strong girl i would say and she would claim! dont bottle things up girl! (:

yapyande!
know him since sec 2. through bingchao! and now he know that there's a motive on me getting to know him! we are quite similar in some way. very emotional! VERY! know him much much better for these few months and very glad that we do. he treat me like a real true friend. a guy with alot of problems also! but he dont bottled things up! he filled me in! (:


kennethGOH and me!

im sure there are still people that i missed out.
its not because i've forgotten about you guys!
you are still remembered by me.
whether you like it or not!
hahaha.

people like choochengyong, joeytanjooee, hengxiaowei, mabeltanweiling, ebenezer, eugene, xiezhihao, nicolettengzining, raysoncheongshenxuan and many others!


sentosa trip '05

okie!
im damn tired now.
going to sleep soon.
timecheck: 3:17am!
it took me 1hour plus to type this shit!
hahaha.
ciao guys!

kangjie .
189th episode.


P.S I LOVE YOU

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close