got this urge to blog my feelings down. and vent everything here. but i just dont know how to put them in words. feeling very lousy these few days and i seriously dont know this kind of feelings. well. i guess no one likes it.

i need someone who can understand how i felt. i have so much things to tell be it xiongwei weiwen or bingchao. but i just cant. it's just not meant to be told you see. sigh. i felt so lousy.

i had so much regrets in life. not one not two but alot more than you can ever think of. my life dont suit me. i dont like the life im having now. having to think so much which are aways rubbish and in the end its not something you even need to think of. this is me. and i dont like it.

okie. enought of rubbish. today basically spend my day time in weiwen house with xiongwei. and we played gunbound together in one house. its something that we havent played for a long time and had a good laughed while playing.

then night time went downstairs to study. went home awhile to open the door for my mum. she left the keys inside. bought dinner for me and weiwen and drinks for everything. then nicolette and benjamin(SRJC) came to find us.

they went to relieved themselves while me and nicolette chat for awhile. had a great chat with her lah. though she keep ask me dont think too much. if it is that easy, i wouldnt have so much problems. sigh.

why am i those type of people who will think so much? i just want to lead a simple life. a life that is so carefree and relax. impossible i guess. i just need to find someone who i can talk to. at least tell them what i can. i need to find someone who can share my burden! its really heavy having to carry them all alone.

suddenly felt that there's no one there for me when i need a shoulder to lean on. everyone is so busy and im like so slack. sigh. ijustcantforget.ijustcant.please,ineedtomoveonandjustgetoutofmylife.

have a good night rest clique!
kangjie.
78th episode.


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