THIS IS WHAT IM FEELING RIGHT NOW! dont know you guys can read or not.
and no, im not going to private this blog. just leave it here bah.
Monday, July 20, 2009
yes, im trying to relate. i wanted to. but i guess i shall pull that idea off.
just got back from a jog. wanted to release some stress i had. its not really true that jogging can help you release stress. i came back from my jog, and i still feel like shit. but who cares? i also made my first official post on my wordpress.
like i have mentioned in my previous post. i will be using wordpress. and will go on private for this blog. so my pathetic number of readers, read it while you can before i go adjust the settings bah.
im really tired already. Emotionally, Mentally, and now Physically. i will try to turned to what bobby is best at.
afterall, i still feel unwanted. sigh.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
i think this song definitely suits me somehow. lol. nobody, although a little no link with what im feeling. but its just the title bah. lol. so maybe if i can change the lyrics a little maybe that will help bah. hehe.
i am nobody nobody to you, i am nobody nobody to you.
lol. okay anyway. woke up late today for project. supposed to reach at 12plus1. but i woke up at around 1215. lol. so went to shower and then cook one packet of the inbumie, mee goreng. ONE packet is like DAMN little to me. normally i ate two packets for that and its like just nice only. :( so i went there feeling quite hungry so i bought two bread. cabbed down since im late. sians. reached at 1 i think.
started doing. in a very slow pace as usual. did one small part for dont know how long when everyone if finally done with their own part. collated everything and it turned out to be 31pages long (excluding some small parts) when the thing is suppose to be only 20pages long. lol. so had dinner first before we continue. dinner-ed at seany's place. aunty sonia cook. i think she can cook quite well. and quite healthy also. not oily. hahaha. i like the pork! its all lean meat. woo~ had rose apple. which is something i dont really like but still eat since its there for us already. lol.
went back to work. editing sucks. we cut down from 31pages to 27pages. dont know took how long. not done yet. still got one big chunk of words for us to edit and cut. awww, all our hard work one by one got chopped off. :( then went to take a bus with dorothy while seany drove the HONDA CRV (long story behind this CRV thing. AND YES! I AM PETTY SEAN! HUR!) to send ham and tricia home. lol.
chatted quite alot with dorothy. mainly she's the one talking lah. im lazy to talk also. and im all along the listener ma. so she told me the stories while i just nod and laugh when necessary. think im really too damn tired already. accompany her at 644 coffeeshop while waiting for her friend to have supper with her. lol.
tomorrow have project AGAIN. ya, what's new? 12pm at seany's place again. hopefully by 6pm we can finish editing the SM shit and then can start on editing MA and work on CB. which i find it a little hard from the pace my group are working.
hmmm. i think people might think that im okay today when im actually not. had a terrible headache. cant voice it out since everyone is working so hard. :( so got to tolerate the pain and everything. sighhhhhhh. life is hard on me now. i dont know why. i always feel like crying. any moment anywhere. i forgot to mention it yesterday. but when im at biz park waiting for them to finish buying food. i can feel that tears are gushing up, but i cant let it flow. i hate it when i need to control my tears. :(
and i think high chance im switching to wordpress. then maybe private this. cause wordpress you could lock whatever post you dont want people to view. oh well. i'll see how. for now, byebye. :(
edit// and i got back my Sundays at Tiffany's from sean. he didnt even read it. first few pages maybe. but from what he says, i am sure its not even one chapter. what to do?
Friday, July 17, 2009
today my day started off bad. totally had a rough day. it wasnt like that initially. but ONEincident actually triggered the whole thing. and because of this,today i had the real taste of being a "nobody", and nope im not talking about the song. people who read this would think that it is the librarian incident that made me so *angry/upset. but this is actually what came along. and because maybe i am too tired and hungry also bah. but who cares?
*RAISE UP HAND*
Answer: No One.
but anyway. did project in school. oh wait. we didnt do at all. from the time after we met gary to the time we had lunch. we didnt do anything. hmm. maybe kwek did one small part bah. but other than that. nothing else. then after lunch went up to class still feeling very *moody/tired. but still had PDI consultation which the tutor said was pretty good. then collated the MA draft. printed at library ALONE when THREE went down. why? dont ask.
*RAISE UP HAND*
after class went to mensa for early dinner. had western. very long never had western already. decided not to save on dinner cause i think i might be spending more if i eat abit only. lol. then to kwek's place to do project. we did for like 3hours? and guess whether we are productive or not.
*No one raised up hand cause it is pretty obvious*
and im finally home at early 11! and finally saw my mum for after like 2 days. was downstairs when i saw her coming down with babie. so walked the dog with her and chit chat abit.
tomorrow's going to be a project based day too. meeting them at 12plus1 at seany's place. i seriously HOPE that we can finished SM by tomorrow including the editing part. cause i think there's alot of editing to be done. sighhhhhhhhhhhh. then still need to do CB. monday need to show her some stuffs already. for nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. im going to see whether to sleep or not.